Song of the day:
Frgt/10 (
Alchemist ft. Chali 2na)
* a remix of
Forgotten by
Linkin Park *
It took me long enough to finally get here and write... I listen to my iPod usually when I type, but i noticed that my right earbud was very quiet... so I pulled it out and to my disgust, the tiny hole where the sound comes out was plugged with wax (YUCK! I know... but these things do poke into your ears... i suppose even the cleanest person has
some wax.) Anyway, I had to pull a pin out to clean it, and now the muzic is pumping through strong and LOUD!
So yea
remix... I am listening to some remixes of Linkin Park and I was wondering if, and what, it would be like if someone were to write a remix of my life... what would it sound like? Would it be soft and soulful like a Nora Jones single. Maybe loud and pissed off like Junkyard Prophets? Or could it be that it would be put into a symphony and done beautifully with subtle hints of attitude and love? I don't know... it just has me wondering lately.
You see, I'm going to my tenth high school reunion this saturday. I'm not nervous at all. I'm really looking forward to it, it will be nice to see how people will be now that we've all grown up a bit. Its just when I hit these monumental (okay maybe not, but distinct moments) times in my life, I can't help but to think about "what would I be like if?"... maybe that comes from my unrest in myself. The two concrete things in my life that I have no doubt about are my God and my Wife. Those are no brainers. However, things i do think about are... what would life be like if my dad wasn't such a lazy good-for-nuthin bum who's done nothing but lied his whole life and has no idea how to love his children? What would my life be like if i decided to follow my talents in playing music, I'm not bragging here. I'd be the first to say that I'm not musical. Heck I can't even read music. But I do know one thing... I've never been closer to my God than when I led worship for kids... and for some reason, I was good at getting them to join with me in that brief time to meet with God. what would it be like if i just didn't give up? What would it be like if I skipped out on Masters Commission (a christian discipleship school) and accepted a scholarship to play football?
Wow! you could really really get depressed throwing all these "what-ifs" at yourself. Though I think reflecting can help to refine our true desires and help motivate us. There is a reason that I am here. I haven't quite figured it out yet, But I trust in my solid Rock that He's been preparing me for that which he has called me to... For in truth I really just want to be a remix of
His life.
Off I go in search of 2 turntables and a microphone.