Well, as most of you know (those of you that read my wife's blog) my wife and I are going to have our first child. Wow! I can't belive I just wrote that. Ever since the day that my wife called me upstairs to tell me we were going to have a baby... it keeps getting more and more real. At first I was like "huh? ummm are you sure?... " (Those things are 99% accurate you dingbat!) It was like a dream. You see, my dad left when I was very young. Growing up I never had the delight of a father at my baseball games. Never knew what it was like to see my dad come to my football practice and watch. He wasn't there when i got into my first fight. Wasn't at my graduation. And was barely at my wedding. Ever since i was as young as I could remember, I wanted to be a dad. To be a GOOD dad. There isn't a doubt in my mind that I'll be a great father, but it still feels like a dream. Moving along in your daily routine... and BOOM! you're most sacred and true calling in life is only 8 months away... (put that in your pipe and smoke it Dan!) You know what... I'm sooo psyched! I get to be a dad. I get to be a Pappa! I like how that sounds. I also like the fact that I have the most incredible woman in the world by my side. Yes I know Erin will be doing 99% of the work (bringing our child into this world)... and for that and for what she's even going through right now... She is more a champion than anyone I've ever known. I can't wait until that moment comes. I can't even put words to it yet, as if you haven't noticed. I'm all giddy and excited, yet I feel like I have this huge mantle of responsibility hanging over my head (which i really do). I just pray that God gives me the grace to rise up and break the chains of my father's past sins... and start a new trend in the Bennett family name. The trend of being an incredible father. One who learns how to love in all situations. One who learns how to forgive when it hurts. One who knows when to fight for what's right. And one who can admit when he's wrong.
Thats it... sorry if it read like blogvomit. I still can't wrap my head around this whole ordeal. But I'm truely blessed with a wonderful wife. And i can't wait be a daddy.
You guys all have a great week. I'm off to find God in the Boundary Waters.
Peace!